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Augustine echoes Sirach's warning against delaying repentance in Confessions 6 to show that his repeated postponements broke a scriptural command to turn to God.
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2500 BCE
1000+ CE

Sirach 5:7

Ben Sira, Ecclesiasticus
Deuterocanon
4 Do not say, "I sinned, yet what has happened to me?" for the Lord is slow to anger. 5 Do not be so confident of forgiveness that you add sin to sin. 6 Do not say, "His mercy is great, he will forgive the multitude of my sins," for both mercy and wrath are with him, and his anger will rest on sinners. 7 Do not delay to turn back to the Lord, and do not postpone it from day to day; for suddenly the wrath of the Lord will come upon you, and at the time of punishment you will perish. 8 Do not depend on dishonest wealth, for it will not benefit you on the day of calamity.
Date: 195-175 B.C.E. (based on scholarly estimates)
Early Christian
While I talked about these things, and the winds of opinions veered about and tossed my heart here and there, time was slipping away. I delayed my conversion to the Lord; I postponed from day to day the life in you, but I could not postpone the daily death in myself. I was enamored of a happy life, but I still feared to seek it in its own abode, and so I fled from it while I sought it. I thought I should be miserable if I were deprived of the embraces of a woman, and I never gave a thought to the medicine that your mercy has provided for the healing of that infirmity, for I had never tried it. As for continence, I imagined that it depended on one's own strength, though I found no such strength in myself, for in my folly I knew not what is written, "None can be continent unless you grant it." Certainly you would have given it, if I had beseeched your ears with heartfelt groaning, and if I had cast my care upon you with firm faith.
Date: 397-400 C.E. (based on scholarly estimates)
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#6716
“... In book 6, although the subject matter seems a somewhat disjunctive conglomeration of topics (Monnica’s arrival, encounters with Ambrose and a beggar, a short biography of Alypius, marriage plans and the dis- missal of Augustine’s concubine), the tension of the narrative, moving excruciatingly towards conversion, never slackens: ‘the book represents undiluted, though often painful, progress’ (O’Donnell 1992, 2:329). And progress, especially in books 3 to 7 of the Confessions, implies libera- tion from Manichaean ways of thinking, which in its turn implies the polemic treatment of the tenets of Manichaean religion. The reader is taken from the question evoking the theme of God’s abiding presence in the opening words of the book: Spes mea a iuventute mea, ubi mihi eras et quo recesseras? [‘My hope from my youth’ (Ps 70:5), where were you, and where did you ‘withdraw’ from me (Ps 10:1)?]; through statements about his desire for progress (in 6.4.6): Volebam enim eorum quae non viderem ita me certum fieri ut certus essem quod septem et tria decem sint [I wanted to be as certain about things I could not see as I am certain that seven and three are ten]; about God’s guiding presence (employing the topos of the way) in 6.5.8: Suspirabam et audiebas me, fluctuabam et gubernabas me, ibam per viam saeculi latam nec deserebas [I sighed and you heard me. I wavered and you steadied me. I travelled along the broad way of the world, but you did not desert me]; about the unacceptable condition of the godless life in 6.6.10: Et inveniebam male mihi esse et dolebam et conduplicabam ipsum male [And my state I found to be bad; this caused me further suffering and a redoubling of my sense of futility]; about reading the Hortensius and his impatience with the lack of prog- ress in 6.11.18: Satagens et recolens quam longum tempus esset ab undevicensimo anno aetatis meae, quo fervere coeperam studio sapientiae … et ecce iam tricenariam aetatem gerebam, in eodem luto haesitans protreptic purpose 159 [As I anxiously reflected how long a time had elapsed since the nine- teenth year of my life, when I began to burn with a zeal for wisdom … and here I was already thirty, and still mucking about in the same mire]; about impatience and conversion in 6.11.20: Transibant tempora et tardabam converti ad dominum, et differebam de die in diem vivere in te [Time passed by. I ‘delayed turning to the Lord’ and postponed ‘from day to day’ (Ecclus 5:8) finding life in you]; and about God’s presence and the unsatisfactory condition of the pre- vious life in 6.16.26: Ego fiebam miserior et tu propinquior. aderat iam iamque dextera tua raptura me de caeno et ablutura, et ignorabam [As I became unhappier, you came closer. Your right hand was by me, already prepared to snatch me out of the filth (Jer 28:13), and to clean me up. But I did not know it]; towards a repetition of the assurance of God’s presence in the closing lines of the book (6.16.26), which is at the same time a powerful conso- lation to the reader, an affirmation that conversion and final certainty is possible: Et ecce ades et liberas a miserabilibus erroribus et constituis nos in via tua et consolaris et dicis, ‘currite, ego feram et ego perducam et ibi ego feram’ [You are present, liberating us from miserable errors, and you put us on your way, bringing comfort and saying: ‘Run, I will carry you, and I will see you through to the end, and there I will carry you’ (Isa 46:4)]. ...”
Kotzé, Annemaré Augustine’s Confessions: Communicative Purpose and Audience (pp. 158-159) Brill, 2004

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